someday, somehow

have been thinking a lot recently, have been asking myself why is this happening.
this is the second time, the second time of a failed friendship.

First time, it is all my fault.
it all revolve around that same thing, not willing to give in.
thought that without them, my life will be pretty much the same, but who knows.
things changes and i miss them more than i can ever say.
but i can't do nothing about it anymore.
what is lost, is lost. everything i do now will not change anything, at all.

This time, i don't want things to repeat itself.
i keep on giving in. this time, things don't work out as well.
you kept on telling me how great and fun is your life, everything revolves around you.
okay, fine. i am listening.
than, what next? ignoring me and talk to your other friends?
i swear, enough is enough.
you don't know how am i feeling right now
i don't know what is happening to us already, i don't want to bother anymore.
i feel so stupid holding on to something that is no longer there.

but no worries, i am still that gen. i won't think anymore,
this is life right?
thankyou abigail loh. you never fail to make me smile, you know?
i am thankful for everything you have done okayyyyyyyyyy (L)

and huijing. who cares, i love you.
thankyou for being staying put there when everybody walks out.

lastly, D.
i dont know if you read my blog but still, thankyou for baking brownies for me.
you have indeed brighten up my day, be it in band or my life

(L)